Blackbird Designs, Anniversary of the Heart, Moonlight Garden

The color of Hope.

Hello dearest readers and friends,

Thank you all again so dearly for your comments.  I am slowly but surely coming around to visit you at your blogs.

What is the color of Hope?  Have you ever thought of hope as a color?

Let me first say that this 4th block of the Anniversary of the Heart should have been done long before any of those things on my last post.  The truth of the matter is that I was keeping myself busy so as not to deal with this block; well, not until I finished this WIP, which I made mention in my last post was to celebrate the successful potty training of my youngest DD and while in the midst of stitching it, it took on another meaning for me.

and so I did.  

One Sunday morning in March, eleven years ago, I had gone to church. Afterwards, I went home feeling a little more tired than usual, had a bite to eat and rested.  About two hours later, I was awakened by this rush of water.  I was six months pregnant.

DH and I gathered our two young girls and rushed off to the local German Hospital.  I was admitted with uncertainty's.  Initially, DH could not come with me each step or move, and with the language barrier, I wore lots of uncertainty's and confusion on my face, not knowing what was happening, what was going to happen next, or where I was being taken.

Can you imagine that feeling?  It even gives me shivers to this day.

To make a long story short, I was in the hospital by now for a few days being monitored.  It was the first day of spring that year, and that first day of spring gave me hope. Hope that all will be well.  I prayed and cried my little heart out, and prayed and cried, and prayed.

I hummed in my head a song.  "Grace. Grace...Your grace is sufficient for me".

Was God testing our faith?  My faith in him?

DH and I made it through that day; and on the next day after spring, we lost our little girl.

I was able to hold this gentle little soul in my arms, and while I clenched her to me with tears rolling down my face, I closed my eyes, looked upward and felt assurance that the the sun will shine again; and that gave me hope.

So while I revisited this chapter of my life, I ask myself what is the color of hope?  Does hope come in colors or things?



Blackbird Designs, Anniversaries of the Heart
Moonlight Visitor with changes


 

I've selected BBDs, Anniversaries of the Heart, Moonlight Visitor to make this tribute  to my DD.

The butterfly represents springs new life.    I changed the house color to a lighter yellow (for this shows hope and that the sun would shine again over my house).  The pink roof top and front door depicts a precious baby girl. 

The heart left as is for she is always in my heart until I see her again.  I left the standing tree as is, showing my strong faith in God with a cross at the top, trusting in him at all times.

And I love the way this block turned out.

Well my dear friends, I will now leave you all with these words; and this is one of the reasons these words are at the top of my blog.

I believe in these words for they have helped me to get through that time of uncertainty and more times thereafter; and I "hope" this will do the same for you or someone you may know.

Lord grant me the serenity to accept the things I cannot change,

Change the things I can,

and the wisdom to know the difference.

and

Thank you God for all you have given me,

for all you have saved me from,

for all I am because of you.

Thank you all for reading.

Always,

Jackie.